can i quit now? please..

so i created a "to do" list on tuesday, which was either a great decision or a very poor one.. sometimes it is nice to have written on paper everything that needs to be done in a certain timespan, and then, even better, to scratch those items off when they have been completed. well, there were about 20 different things on my list, at least 10 of which were school related, and i have scratched off maybe 2, only 1 school related. so here i am sitting in the lab at school, where i came to do a take-home test that was due on tuesday, and i read the instructions that say very clearly in bold type : NO LATE TAKE HOME TESTS WILL BE ACCEPTED. NO EXCEPTIONS! so.. what you're saying is, you're not going to accept it? oh well, that's one thing i can scratch off my list, not because it's finished, but because it is no longer necessary. i'll take it where i can get it at this point. i'm so stressed that i'm actually numb to the feeling.. i have been stressed for so long that i don't remember what it feels like to not be approaching a deadline of some sort. i think, i'm not sure, but i think, that people get paid for this sort of thing, to be stressed out all of the time. i have chosen to PAY to be stressed out.. it's backwards... what i keep telling myself right now is that if i can just make it to the weekend, THEN i'll get caught up.. HAAA!! i know myself better.. i just want to make it to the weekend so i can relax, sleep, watch some football, and wait until sunday night to start freaking out about all i have to do.. the semester is almost over, can i get a HALLELUJIA!! and hopefully by the grace of God, i will be graduating in may.. please say a prayer for that!
i went to new orleans over thanksgiving break to work with hilltop rescue to do some relief work and see the hines family. just a reminder here: if anyone has forgotten that new orleans got demolished by a hurricane a little over a year ago, refresh your memory! just because the media has moved our attention to whatever the current newsflash is doesn't mean that new orleans was magically rebuilt and refurbished while we weren't looking. it is unbelievable.. there are still thousands of homes that have gone completely untouched for over a year.. these people have been displaced for over 14 months, after losing everything they knew to be home. i'm no saint here, this is only the second time i have been since the storm, i just wanted to act as some sort of reporter to anyone who reads this, to remind you that our fellow citizens, americans, still need our help..
back to the world i want to escape from...

trying to keep my head above the water
NCR