here we go again..
how long has it been? 5, 6 months? well, for whatever reason, i haven't been sharing my life with you. (this is all assuming that anyone even checks this anymore) but here i am again. sitting in front of my computer compelled to share with you. the past 6 months have been great lessons in life for me. so many times i wanted to take the time and write to put my thoughts out there to be seen and heard. not because i think my thoughts should be seen, but to get feedback on my thoughts. so that i can hear from you about your experiences, ideas, advice. i am young, and in no way do i feel capable or even worthy to speak on certain subjects, but at the same time, so many of you are capable and experienced to read my thoughts and share your responses and your own thoughts.
i have decided to name this blog "the journal of a wayward christian" no longer will i allow anyone to think that i am someone who i am not. hear me now when i say that i am not perfect, or anywhere near perfect. if you didn't think i was some great young man, good. i don't want any false impressions. don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to bash my own name, i'm just putting it out there that my life is messy. and i believe that the reason we are christians, the reason that you are my family, is so that we can share our lives with eachother. i'm convinced that this idea being out in the open, this idea of "messy spirituality" can bring us together in ways we never imagined. the things that i'm going through are likely the things that you are going through. "but no, i'm the only one dealing with that, because i never hear about anyone else struggling with it" if you have ever thought that- I'M RIGHT HERE! the devil has intricate schemes to trick us into believing something that is so far from the truth.
now i'm not saying that i am giving you the keys to every detail and dark corner of my life, but i am telling you that you and i are very much alike and that is beautiful. please, i sincerely ask, if you read this journal and desire to share with me, please, please do. i pray that you might be encouraged by my testimonies. i'm not here to teach, just to share and to be in communion with you.
please pray for me as i begin to re-build my relationship with Jesus. i leave for honduras in 5 days. this is my first time to go back since august and i have missed it. i am only going for 9 days, but i am so excited about being there again. i'm going to henderson this weekend to be with one of my best friends in the world, mariano, as he graduates. his parents from argentina are going to be there, and this will be the first time to meet them and spend time with them. pray for this experience as i know God will provide us opportunities to share with them. until next time...
NCR
i have decided to name this blog "the journal of a wayward christian" no longer will i allow anyone to think that i am someone who i am not. hear me now when i say that i am not perfect, or anywhere near perfect. if you didn't think i was some great young man, good. i don't want any false impressions. don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to bash my own name, i'm just putting it out there that my life is messy. and i believe that the reason we are christians, the reason that you are my family, is so that we can share our lives with eachother. i'm convinced that this idea being out in the open, this idea of "messy spirituality" can bring us together in ways we never imagined. the things that i'm going through are likely the things that you are going through. "but no, i'm the only one dealing with that, because i never hear about anyone else struggling with it" if you have ever thought that- I'M RIGHT HERE! the devil has intricate schemes to trick us into believing something that is so far from the truth.
now i'm not saying that i am giving you the keys to every detail and dark corner of my life, but i am telling you that you and i are very much alike and that is beautiful. please, i sincerely ask, if you read this journal and desire to share with me, please, please do. i pray that you might be encouraged by my testimonies. i'm not here to teach, just to share and to be in communion with you.
please pray for me as i begin to re-build my relationship with Jesus. i leave for honduras in 5 days. this is my first time to go back since august and i have missed it. i am only going for 9 days, but i am so excited about being there again. i'm going to henderson this weekend to be with one of my best friends in the world, mariano, as he graduates. his parents from argentina are going to be there, and this will be the first time to meet them and spend time with them. pray for this experience as i know God will provide us opportunities to share with them. until next time...
NCR
posted by ncreeves at
7:31 AM
3 Comments:
Awwww my little brother...one of the best places in life I've ever been is brokenness. I hear your heart. One of the hardest and undoubtedly the most humiliating and messy (well said) but also one of the very best things that has ever happened to me. Made me understand how beautiful the body of Christ was intended to be. We don't do it well always, but boy when we do get it right if even for an instant it's a piece of Heaven on earth. I realized somewhere in there that anything good that ever comes of me will be because of Jesus because left to my own I'll mess it up every time. Don't know if you've heard the intro to I repent on Derek Webb's house show cd or not but I think you just went tandem with all that he said. The very best thing that could happen to any of us would be for our sins to be exposed to one another on the 5 oclock news so we'd have no chance but not to hide anymore. We'd get serious about being real with one another and we'd realize that all we really have is Jesus. It's all we really have anyway.
I appreciate your humility. I appreciate your heart. I appreciate the fact that you have always had a David heart and even when David messed up he found himself running back. He was a man after God's own heart. So are you, don't forget that!
Remember you are and will ALWAYS be in my prayers, and I am forever here if I can do anything for your heart.
I love you. JEN
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Jen, at 5:46 PM
I love this Nate! Thank you!
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Rachael, at 12:16 AM
You finally blogged! And what a blog, at that!
Thank you for your kind heart and your words of wisdom. Yes, you are young, but you have proven a far-reaching maturity many times. Remember Timothy...don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity.
Thank you for the example you have given me and continue to give me. I can't wait to see you (only one day away)!
Love ya,
Jennifer Michelle
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JMAS, at 3:13 PM
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